Needing Some Help..

Hello Everybody.
I am just feeling kinda down right now and I was wondering if anyone had any words or quotes that would make me feel better.
As of right now I am just doing drill and it has kinda been taking a toll on me and my family. I never see them and I know They are upset about it. And I feel so bad because of it..
I also am doing the dating thing still and I DO like it... But how are you supposed to date a bunch of different people and not feel bad about it? I feel like I'm cheating On all these boys and I'm not because I am not WITH any of them... But I just feel so bad.. Also, when I go to family outings or Char stuff, I feel so lonely and like I have no one to support me other then my Family... It sucks.. So..
What do I do?
How can the attitude change and I not think about one person in particular because that's all I seem to be doing..
Anyone?

Hello World!

Hello everybody!
I am so sorry I haven't blogged in like a year! Life has been so crazy the last couple months! Here's what has happened:
1. Cody became my boyfriend July 15th. We had a ton of fun, went to Disneyland, Went to Lake Powell, and Char's Crush.
2.Cody dumped me Oct. 22nd. ah... good times. That was really hard. We are still friends and he cwould like to try again when i get out of high school. He just had a hard time with my busy life and I think I scared him! So it's my bad. Don't talk crap. He did nothing to me. We're good.
3. School started and it has been crazy. I like all my classes but one. CIS 1020. Hardest darn thing in the world. My teacher is a moron. But that has been good!
4.Drill is taking over my LIFE!!!! I have no time for anything! I have it everyday form either 2-5hours!! It is crazy. I'm always tired now but I think it will be worth it! I think we're gonna do very good this year so I'm excited!
6. I am DATING!!!! hahahahaha!! I've never been able to just DATE and it's so weird to me! I have about four different boys right now taking me on dates and stuff and its is crazy! But I'm really enjoying it. So that's what's up right now.
Later I will post some pictures!
Miss you all!!

School. Life. Whatever

Hello everyone! SO sorry I haven't blogged in a long time! Life has been very busy! I went to Pine Valley, BDT, School, Disneyland (going tomorrow) etc. Drill has gotten very chaotic! It's really an every day thing now! I'm so excited to tell everyone we got TWO new coaches added to Chandra! Their little posse is now called "Char's Angels" kinda like charlies angels! Cute huh? So I'm very excited to see what they offer us! They seem way nice!!

School is good. Boring. I already have senioritis haha! But this year will go by fast!!

Cody is good. I guess you could call him my boyfriend now. :) We're going to Disneyland tomorrow and Lake Powell in a couple weeks!
SO LIFE IS GOOD!! I'll keep you posted. More to come later! Thanks!

Break Up, with a ahppy ending

Well as a lot of you know Mike and I have broken up. Yes after three years I finally dicided it was time to try something new. There was a lot of problems going on with us and just him by himself. I also was having a hard time with myself. I felt like i was burying a hole of depression and I'm NOT a depressed person. So, I'm getting myself out of it! Although the brake up was very hard and still hurts and stings my heart., I am very happy now! I fell my decision was for the best and I've noticed a difference in me! I am also enjoying the freedom of dating! I'm dating a boy named Cody! I've liked him forever so it came to no shock we started to date. He's really great. BUT DON'T WORRY!!! WE ARE NOT BOYFRIEND AND GIRLFRIEND!!!!! we are simply dating. But i have a lot of interest in him and him in me so we'll see what happens..


I've been asked on many other dates too! So I'm exctied for school to start so I can enjoy my last year in High School!!


My heart is still mending itself but just know I am VERY happy! Life is great! And I'm enjoying it to the fullest!

here's a picture of me and Cody

FREEDOM!!!

THE BRACE IS OFF!!!!! For all that don't know what I'm talking about I mean the nasty, dirty, arm brace I've been wearing for about 2 weeks is GONE!!! I had my surgery and it went very well! Dr.Richards found A LOT of scar tissue. He said he just shaved it all off! When I got out of surgery I don't really remember much! I remember walking was very hard! And everything felt heavy.. My parents said in the car I kept asking for food?? I remember eating the food but not asking for it hahaha! So i was a little loopy! Well TODAY I got my brace off and the stitches out! and here is what is looks like!

Gross huh?? Well this picture I actually still have the stitches but it looks exactly the same as this. It is still a little sore. doing some stuff still hurts pretty dang bad but i live. :) I'm excited to get it back to feeling better and I can't wait for drill!!!!!

Wrist Update...

Well today I went to a hand specialist and he received my MRI and looked them over. He also had me do more X-rays at his office. He came in with his PA and started explaining what he found. He believes I have these three things.
1. My Ulna bone, the bone that sticks out on your wrist, is a little long? Like not abnormally long just longer which could mean it's pinching me.
2. I have a tear in a ligament. Easy to fix but painful if not treated.
Both of these things he said he could fix very easy, just shave them away! Ha ha! That sounds bad but it's very simple he sad.
3. I have a cyst. If that is there He will make an incision on the under part on my wrist and cut it out.

So if you haven't guessed I'm getting surgery!! My first one! Monday May 18th! I'm not scared at all or upset with what his decision is! If it gets fixed, AWESOME!!! Bring it on!! So just though 'd let you all know I'm gonna be kind of our of it Monday! :) Wish me luck!

Dun Dun Dun...

Well as some of you know I have been having troubles in my wrist. I'm not sure what from it just hurts all the time. So I have been to multiple different doctors each one something different. Carpel Tunnel, broken cartiledge, tendonitis, and I have had treatment through therapy and a Cortizone shot.. everything just a quick fix. So today I ventured out and got an MRI done. I had A BLAST!!!! hahahahaha!!! I had to get dye in my arm though so at first I followed the doctor into a dark room....

Scared ya huh?/

:) Don't be scared! The room had a bed and I was told to lay on it and put my arm on a towel. The doctors name was Dr.Jensen.. and really he was a PA(physicians assisstant), which is what I want to do! So I took asvantage and asked a lot of questions! He showed me how everything worked and through the whole thing showed me what bones were what on the machine, what medicine he was using, where the needle was going, and what it's supposed to do. I watched him put two needles in my wrist, first one was the numbing shot, by the way, I watched this all of like 5 inches away from my face! It was amazing! Then he put a different shot in. This time he unscrewed the top off and left the actual needle in my arm!! :) he then moved it around, pushed it in, just played with it! It was so awesome! Then he screwed on another vile of medicine and sent dye ruunning through my vains and I got to seet the whole thing run through them on a screen! It was amazing!!

Three different doctors helped me.. well PAs anyway! They were so fun! They answered a lot of questions I had and made it really fun! They even offered me letters of recomondation letters for when I got to college! They all said to either go to Duke, George Washington, or Stanford, NOT U of U... So I have a lot to think about.

They all talked about how I would be great as a PA! They even told my mom they were impressed! :) It made me happy!

The MRI itself hurt worst then anything. I was in the most uncomfortable position i though my arm was going to dislocate.. All in all I had a blast learning and experiencing all that fun stuff!